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GUESS FUCKING WHAT!!! [31 Jan 2003|01:50am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

It's Justin FUCKiNG Timberlake's FUCKiNG Birthday so y'all better go and wish him a FUCKiNG Birthday or I'll atempt to kick your ass! Fun stuff huh? Yeah, nevermind.

I'm in a bitchy yet sleepy almost entertaining fucking mood. Am I amusing you? I guess not.

Well I love Justin, the end.


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So. [30 Jan 2003|10:12am]
[ mood | apathetic ]

I know I said I wouldn't be around too much and stuff but well here I am cuz I do still love you all and just that yeah. Life sucks. Tomorrow is Justin's birthday and I'm still doing what I have planned for him. It's gonna be fun hopefully. I love him and that's all. The end. I'm done with this update.

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Although... [22 Jan 2003|04:40pm]
[ mood | upset ]

My life is fine. Well, I mean MY life is fine, it's actually NOT. Because everyone else around my life is fucked up and some how I want to help you all but I can't. I hate being this type of person to care about others before me. It just complicated.

I'm upset because my sister and Amit are over. Man, I should have seen that coming.

I'm upset because Chris isn't happy.

I'm upset because Benji is going through the same exact thing I went to and hurt a person during it. But hey, it's over with and in time it'll be okay, I promise you man.

I'm upset because people are hating on Christina.

And the last reason why I am upset. Because everyone of you are complaining about us dying and things but hey do you update? NO! So :-P

And even I'm upset, I'm not. I'm not upset because I have Justin in my life and he is keeping saner than sane. And I hope you all find that soon.

Well, I'm out.

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w000000000000000000t!!! [18 Jan 2003|11:12pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

WE DID! Or well I did it.

I 69 Justin FUCKING Timberlake.

And here is your proof.

Better recognize and don't hate appreciate! w00t w00t!!!! :D


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Ok yeah so I'm pissed off. [16 Jan 2003|04:57pm]
[ mood | irate ]

My daughter deleted her journal. But I'm not pissed at that. Relieved actually. After all everyone had to go and copy her. So like who the fuck cares. *nods* I don't.

But here is the reason why I'm pissed off. I'm pissed off because I JUST AM. I want to talk to Justin ASFUCKINGAP!!!!!

Thank you had have a splended day.


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Hmm. [15 Jan 2003|02:41pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I love my Husband. He's like really funny now too. *dies* Okay, I'm a strange mood. I just woke up from I don't know why. Yes. I'm listening to Simple Plan and wishing I was in NY actually. Haha. They need journals so I can worship Seb! ;)

Justin loved that I got to present with LeAnn and that was great to see Justin's face. And I loved when he hid behind me. Heeee. I just wanted to kiss him right then and there. And I'm really mad at Joey for keeping us away from each other the whole night in pictures. He didn't want us to be TOO obvious. *makes a face* *sto* WHATEVER! Haha.

Well I know I had more to say but I'm blank cuz I'm still adjusting to the light.

And I got this--
who's your buddy?
*dies* Because well, you know I did Marry one. Hahaha.

I'll be back with more later. Enjoy the icon. You know it's so damn sexy of me when I wear glasses. Too bad I'm Justin's! ;)

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For Justin. [12 Jan 2003|04:32pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

This is for eyes only really. I wrote it cuz I was inspired. And I wasn't and hadn't been inspired in the longest time so this is very well... just I guess read it.


Just as a poet needs inspiration to write a masterpiece

I need you ...

Just as an artist needs a subject for his work of art,

I need you ...

Just as a teacher needs a pupil to mold into greatness,

I need you ...

Just as a composer needs a theme to create a timeless melody,

I need you ...

For without you, Justin, my life would be empty of all inspiration. There will be no work of art for me to gaze at; no person of greatness before me; no timeless melody to listen to. My life will exist in shades of gray instead of vibrant colors, and I will be less than whole.

In the past, the proper words have escaped me, and my innermost feelings have been kept locked away in the depths of my heart. No more - for through this letter, I proclaim to you, Justin, my undying love and eternal devotion. And I'm glad every night I am able to finally share and proclaim my love to you. I will love you forever and always.

I was going to save that for your birthday and things when we renew or vows and things, but I thought I might as well share it now. Anywayzy like it says... I LOVE YOU.


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One of those long updates -- I think. [10 Jan 2003|03:41am]
[ mood | satisfied ]

So, my life is being eventfull again and I don't where to even begin. I've kind of lost my lack of inspiration here too. I don't know where it went and I kinda want it back.

Well to start, guess what?!!? I love Justin FUCKING Timberlake and I'm glad he's my HUSBAND. He makes me feel alive whenever I need to feel alive! *nods*

Wade, you're welcome to join us every time! It was fun and I really enjoy talking to you because you seriously are my best friend in the whole world. And you'll find that soulmate of yours that will surpase Nat.

Jacob, I'm here for you through whatever you need me for. I know we don't talk much and we are kind of rivals, but I hate to have that between boybands -- so you are my friend and if ever NEED someone to talk to -- you know how to find me.

Heather and Amit, I'm sorry that what happened tonight had to go happen. I am really sorry about it. I wish I had more words but things happen and don't worry cuz it wasn't any of you fault. You did all you could do. And you can always try again. I love you Heather and I hope to see you soon! <333. I really miss you and mom and dad. Maybe I should just go home for awhile. *shrugs* I don't even know. :-/

Is that all? I'm pretty sure it is. . . Oh no yeah, speaking off all these Ex's... Bobbie is back. I don't know what she wants, but she wants something. I hope it's not to start another fight between me and Justin. God, that would just suck and what's Tara talking about? She's in love with me? Ugh, I could have sworn she just announced she hated me because I wouldn't take her to this club so she could FLIRT with other guys. *shrugs*

I just want my life to stop havin all these up and downs. It's making me go insane!

That's it. If I have more I'll mention it.


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Hmm soo... [05 Jan 2003|04:04am]
[ mood | amused ]

this post it just to say that I love my daughter. I love her so much and I'm damn blessed.

I can't help it. She just deserved this great update. Thank the lord I have her in my life. I need her at times like this. She like just knows when I'm feeling down and it's just refreshing to have say "Daddy, cheer up, I love you" or "Daddy, don't be sad, I love you.." it's like repetive but I love it. I can't help it.

Okay I'm not making sense. It's late and I just put her to bed. Oops. Haha. Well, I think I'll just go and check on her and then hump my horny husband because he took Chris' viagra. *tsk tsk*

And tis all. Night folks.


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*blinks* [02 Jan 2003|03:51pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

And I thought I was going through hell.

I'm here for all of you. More than you'll ever know. I know you don't know me all that well, but you are all my friends and when my friends are in serious shit I am there for them, no matter what.

I can't pick a side but I'm willing to hear both. I can't tell you what's right and what's wrong but I'm will to listen to give my opinion.

And with all that said I do hope soemthing works out. Really, I have so much of own drama right now with my feelings and Justin that when I see all this, I can't help but worry and I get more upset and frustrated knowing that I can't help.


So my life...how am I feeling? What am I doing? To be completly honest, I feel like a fuck up and my life just isn't what it used to be anymore. I seem to be pissing everyone off lately. I feel cornered and lost. And I can't even have a conversation in a chat anymore without getting totally lost or angry. I feel like I'm not apart of you guys anymore and we're losing touch of some sort. I can't bare that anymore.

It's hurting so much and I want to know if there was something I did or someone I hurt. And why isn't anyone telling me anything. Whatever happened to all that? Yeah. I hate feeling selfish...

On a little happier note, my Lauren is feeling better. She had a really bad cold and it kept me from all of you, so hmm maybe that was it but really I had to take care of her and I'm just glad she is finally better.

Heather and Tyler have been nothing but supportive of everything that I'm doing and I'd to thank you guys. You truly are the best siblings anyone could ever have. I actually still can't believe my sister is pregnant and my brother is married. It's all still so new to me but I like treasure it because they're extremly happy with where they are and that's just something I've always wanted in all of them. Sami and Amit you're now apart of my family and I truly am blessed that you guys are in it. I just hope my feelings lately towards things haven't effected you in any way. I love you all so much and what I do with my feelings is nothing personal too you. And hey Justin, that goes for you too. I love you as well baby, more than anything in this whole intire world.


PS. Work things out and come to me if you need me. That was the main reason of this update.

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Hmmm... [30 Dec 2002|12:41am]
[ mood | confused ]

I still have a headache the size of Japan.

Asprine don't work.

Justin's sex ain't workin'.

I don't know what to do. :-/


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...*shrugs* [27 Dec 2002|02:01pm]
[ mood | lethargic ]

Last night kinda wasn't my night. I felt like total crap because of this headache that took over me. I don't know. I can't take how I can be happy one minute and sad the next. Maybe it's Justin. I wanna be next to him. I can't stand being away. Where are youuuu?

And well, Heather, I'm happy for you and Amit. I hope all stays well with you and you're new baby. I also hope Amit takes care of you. Really, you need to be careful now.

I just put Lauren in for a nap. She was up all night crying from a nightmare that she had. So I'm really sleepy since I didn't get any sleep. *sighs* Fuck me. I'm so miserable.

And I had more to say but I'm lost right now. So damn lost.

*crawls up into a ball in bed* Wake me up when you find Justin.

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Justin... [26 Dec 2002|12:15am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

This is my Christmas gift to you. It's something Tara and I have been planning and well that was the many reason's I was hanging with her. I needed help and I also needed a best friends point of view. And going to her seemed worth it and believe me it was. She will update all about it as well too. Just so you know.

And this what I've planned out.

I know we've only been married 5 months since December 6th, 2002. But well I'll be Goddamned because it feels like we've been married for almost 1 year already and we've been through all the fights and everything you can think of. We have been faithful and things but those things come up and I'm sure it feels like it's nothing. So on January 6th, 2003. I've decided to renew our vows and have an even bigger ceremony! And that will be on January 31st 2003; you're birthday to make it even more specialiar! ;)

-- Marrige Renew Vows -- so I bring this for your Christmas Present from me to you! Along with other little essentials that you'll receive later tonight! :D :P

I love you so much baby, I want to be with you forever. I can't imagine my life without you and I hope I can have my wish. Merry Christmas to you.

And to all a goodnight! ;)


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Christmas time in the city..... [22 Dec 2002|04:49pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Okay that song is my head. >:O!

My best friend is back -- lucca_tony -- and he promises a great big update soon. I'm giddy and excited. LMAO. Shhh.

Anyway, it's back to Christmas shopping cuz I'm almost done. I just need to get Xy, Janie, and Tony! :) w00t!

Love you all kk,

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*sobsob* [16 Dec 2002|10:39pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Tara and I went shopping today and we didn't get anything on what we needed. Justin is so hard to shop for! And so is everyone else. So we decided we are just going to get you money and lotto tickets or something...*laughs*

Na, just playing. I did however by the special people some gifts. Including Janie, Dan and Brit, and even yes Bobbie. Ha. I also got something for my parents, Heather and Tyler. I got the guys stuff. The only person I didn't actually get was Justin and that's because like there isn't anything I can buy. He has my love. That's enough or should be enough right? Hahaha. I brought him everything else I could buy him...hell man he brought me everthing he could buy me...an island for goodness sake! HA! So yeah.

Well, I must go now because I have to put Lauren to sleep. It's past her bedtime and she's watching this movie on TV that she shouldn't watching. *laughs*



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Ugh, that was well interesting. [15 Dec 2002|02:05am]
[ mood | complacent ]

These past 3 days have been a living hell cuz I thought he wanted us to be over. But of course it was just jealously. There isn't anything going on between Tara and I. So yeah, he finally realized all this.

I love him with everything that I have and so I guess he sees that now. I'm glad. I'm just finally glad it's all over with. I'm not going to leave his side. I just got here in Orlando to be with him. My plans and ideas for the re-marrige are finalized. Thank you Tara.

And thank you Heather. I appreciate your help of course.

I let Justin know all my feelings, I got him to cry. I feel good and I'm happy. And I'm not going to jinx myself any more than I have to.


*closes laptop and snuggles next to Justin, wrapping my arms around him and whispering the words of love*

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*sighs* [13 Dec 2002|08:07pm]
[ mood | moody ]

Let me get this straight. He doesn't believe me that I love him because I'm hanging out with one of my best friends. And the supossely the fact that I don't make time for him anymore. Pardon my french but what the fuck is wrong with him. OMFG, it was 2 god damn days that I went and did my shit because he had to do his shit. You know I think it's really pathetic that my own Husband doesn't think I love him when he's only doing what I'm doing. Go fucking firgure -- I'm sorry. He's Justin Fucking Timberlake. He needs to go FUCK himself if he's gonna act like a big mother fucking baby! And like I said, pardon my french.

Tara is only a friend and if you people don't want to believe me fine. It's not like it's going to make a difference anyway because you are all think headed. Believe what you want to believe. I'm not going to sit here and argue about it.

I love Justin with all that I have and if doesn't want to believe that and believe the stupid rumors when I'm his fucking husband so be it.

On TRL yesterday, I cleared up the rumors and I stated the truth. Don't believe it then fuck you okay. And as for my video, I do hope you all like it. It was great to premire it and have some feedback from everyone. It premired at nubmer 10 today and I am proud. It rocks to be there on that countdown! :)

I will be around Tara a lot more now because she is helping me with something extremly important for Justin and I's "re-marrige - wedding" thing. So yes even if he's being an egotistical fuck and a complete jealous and incohearent loser -- I still LOVE him and I'm going to do what I was doing. Maybe at the wedding he realize just how much he DOES mean to me. I should really give up -- you know if he doesn't trust me but WHATEVER. I'm doing it. I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH TO THROW ALL THIS AWAY. EVEN IF THE FUCKER IS BEING STUPID.

Thank you and to all a goodnight! :-P


PS. Tara hon, I'm ready to go whenever you are! :)

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:( [13 Dec 2002|07:38am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Why doesn't he believe me that I love him?

Why is does he have to be so damn jealous?

Why does he have to be so damn thick headed?

Wait...who I am to talk. *sighs*

She's only my best friend. I'm married to Justin. Do you see the distinction? Yeah, I thought so. Just tell him that.

Ugh, Justin please don't go home after TRL. *frowns* I love you.

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So... [09 Dec 2002|11:34pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Billboards. I was bored off my ass. Ha. As you could tell I looked like a total fool up there.

My baby however did a brilliant job although he didn't want to be up there. He still rocked. He looked so pretty too. I'm so glad he was able to perform. I have to admit when he got up and moved I got nervous. Heh. But he pulled it off and I'm very proud. I'm always proud of him.

Who cares about me, it's all about my baby.

And speaking of my baby, my other baby -- Lauren. *laughs* Well, yeah she's adorable. I can't get enough of her at all she's been nothing but my angel and I love her. I think Heather really spoiled her so now she's all sweet! Haha, not that she was before. *laughs*

I'm in real weird mood right now. I feel like my brain is fried or something. I can't think at all. I feel kind of worthless too. Hmmm...something's wrong. Dude. Ew. Okay yeah whatever.

So, besides my weird mood I have to plan a wedding again...and it's my wedding. Me and Justin decided on getting married again. It's going to be better than the first that's for sure. I have this idea. And it's going to be all me because my Justin deserves it all. Yup yup and since I'm fried that's my update.

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Well... [01 Dec 2002|11:02pm]
[ mood | horny ]


I feel better today. A lot better. My sore throat is gone and I can breath threw my nose. Justin took care of me. He went out to go and buy us some food to eat in bed because we're bored. Lord only knows what he's going to bring back. *giggles*

So, I sit and wait...paiently! *grins*

Notice the mood! *nods*

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